jus came back home......................so tired and sian and.......................

stay over in sch to prepare for SGB............also not sure wat i'm doing...........jus do lor........so i'm a GL for those cute little BB boys......they are reali weet they even make the effort to remember mi name............but i onli like 2 out of 5.....haha....becuz the other three is like a mess......i have to take care of them like a bao mu...haiz.....but still they are all cute bah......but it reali tiring to take care of them.......hope that nxt year won't have bah....it reali tiring to take care of small kids.........
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dont sure why................feeling vri down...............can sense that sth bad is going to happen......becuz i can feel sth weird happening everywhere.....sld i say weird or sld i say in other phrase neng......but i reali cannot think of a word to describe......................

i noe ppl will say that got problem thn solve lah..............but i tink it something tat i cannot solve............i cannot have a solution to it....becuz i tink tat it sth bi ran.............and it will happen for sure......................
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feeling sad..i cannot commmit in all the things i hav...........i feel like i'm always touch and go............even with my family......................i nv eat my dinner at home for a week le........this make mi feel super guilty...becuz that mean i hav left my mother alone in hse ...........i tink it vri bad.......i'm not a gd daughter........haiz........

i have not been reali participle in disscussing project..........i jus try to finiah my part nia...........and i did do much research for my project tooo.....even though my frenz nv say anything........but i still feel peiseh to let them do al stuff...............

thn i have not been going any miting for red camp (so i miss all the miting frm the vri start)...........haha.............actually regret joing it.....becuz i sld hav noe that it will make my life more difficult.............but wat to do..................

alot of things is going through in my brain...........yet........i keep forgetting it...............all this thinking process make mi to have frequent headache.....haiz.bu wat to do..............

not sure why nowadays i eating lesser and lesser.................i can even dont eat yet i dont feel hungry................which i tink is vri weird.................am i having some illness that i don't noe.......suddenly have the thot...............if i die one dae will anyone cry for mi...........
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didn't expect myelf to have such a reaction...............but i tink it will be good bah..........
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T.T........................not sure why..............but feel so much better aft it...................it true that T.T can hlp a person to vex out all the unhappy stuff..............................
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didn't noe that i hav type so much.........................jus keep on typing and typing on how i feel...............i tink my head is lighter now................haha.........................^-^.......