2007 is ending soon........................have gd and bad memories.............but actually can't remember much..........haha.........i'm always STM..........that why i'm having this blog.......

janice say my post all vri wordy.........so i shall make it in point form haha.......

things i did todae

1. cut my aunt's hair
2. go janice's hse bake egg tart
3. slack at home

and my new yr resolution!!!!!

1. stay at home more
2. but mus go out wif frenz more too....
3. mus try out more new stuff
4. study hard and play hard
5. mus get better grade...........
6. mus settle my brain abit more
7. mus slim down more
8. hope that everyone ard mi can be happi
9. mus go find more trees instead of focusing on one
10. hope that i can find wat i reali wan.......

so i tink sld be it le lah.............i tink i wont follow too...but it still good to set a list of things to do............

yesterdae went out wif my lakota.........so sad that not eeryone is there.....but is a norm le lah......vri outing is like that.....most important thing is that we hav fun....hehe...



everyone eat their lunch b4 coming............so joc, ning and ting pei wo eat at long john.....while we wait for ck......



so we when to buy I am legend ticket when ck dao le.....becuz this month s his birthdae..so we got a free ticket.....so everyone jus pay 8 buck.......haha.....actaully we wanting to watch 4.15pm one.......but onli left those seat that will make ur neck suan one.......so we ended up buying 5.15pm one......haha........



thn weiting dao le............so we hav not much place to go.............so we went to MRT station to sit and tok..............ck share alot sia....but cannot share wif ur........hehe.......can onli tell him to jia you we all will support u....haha.....



so aft movie......we go mit mak.....thn we tok some pic........





we ask ppl to take for us...thn those ppl are actually ppl who selling chocolate........so....









so we bought chocolate frm them aft they hlp us take photo.....haha....




thn we proceed to fish and co...........i tink onli i enjoy the food vah....and i tink most is first time trying fish and co................

while we are waiting dor table.......haha.....


yeah......mi, joc and caikwan share..............i luv this.................haha.................


weiting and mi.................

wo yuan yi wei ni....haha

so we hav a gd dinner...thn tian tian drop by awhile............

aft that we play around at the love word word outside.......trying to hlp ck abit..............haha....so force him to take the chocolate flower we boutght earlier on and take photo we the love word........haha...hope that this method work....haha..............

so aft this we jus went home.............i jus go slp once i reach home..........not sure why...but i'm super tired..................haha............

todae going to janice hse to bake things....hope that is will be successful.......if it good maybe................haha.........

ok my attachment finally ended..................i tink i going to miss the place bah.................onli started to noe and adapt to the place...............haiz.....................

so i got my attachment grade: ok still not tat bad..........at least got a B......hehe......

in my ward.........sth happen............my patient ran away.............she ran away wif her hubby.......ad leave their baby's body in the ward...............DOTz................

actaully she can discharge le....but the doctoer haven see her yet..........so she wait until cannot wait le...............so she ran off..........................wif her wrist tag and her I/V plug..............

it my first time in my life see-ing patient running away frm the ward.....................it so weird lah..........but i nv go hlp them to find............becuz it my last dae and i leave onli a few mintues b4 i finish my shift.....so i continue to tok to my auntie.........

anyway............thank Azri for waiting for mi to take bus tgt wif mi..............and dont be sad guy...........i tink u are a great person and a great nurse..............shall be more positive to ur future ok........................maybe next time be more careful bah..................jia you!!!!!

looking forward to my weekend......................ltr going out wif my mama....if time allow mi.....i will go mi jm, fang and wai.........thn sun....my lakota ppl...............thn mon........go janice hse bake cookies.............and tues...........chiong my project............haha............thn wed.........go out wif jm, fang, forbes and jiasin........ pack pack neh.....haha....

todae see four female coming in for termination of pregnacy................i feel so angry lor.............

i see those gal so painful.............and their boyfriend is jus sitting next to them.............

wat the **** lah...

why dare to do it but dont dare to take up the responsible...............

stupid guy and foolish gal.......................

the gal wriggle in pain and the guy jus sayang her.................

wat the hell........................

i reali hate the guys................wat make them to hav the right to bring such a bad experience to a gal.......................

if the guy reali love her........why can't they jus married the gal instead.........and jus take gd care of his gal and their baby.......

why must he make a gal do such a thing that harm her bodies.............

haiz..................................

to ppl who read this post..............pls onli do things when u are ready to take up responsible.........

by right todae shld be a gd dae......as my auntie finally come and visit mi..............

but i tink it turn out to be a suay dae for mi.........

when i reach the bus stop then i realise i forget to bring money........so hav to use those left over coins in my bag to buy my lunch.........

thn i hav came out of my hse early le but i still cha yi dian late for work............

thn i forget to take out my working stuff and name tag...so i keep going back to staff lounge to take my things..........

and my ward is full hse for todae.............that mean super busy............

so i jus tell myself...............todae will be a suay dae for mi.........as all my suay dae start when i forget to bring sth..........but i also tell myself that i shall be positive and take things lightly..............


so it went well (but for a while onli).......as i hav a great time toking wif my patient (for a hr)..........

but my lower abdominal started to cramp..................in my whole life i nv hav cramp b4.............so i try to walk around to relief the cramp....but it didn't work............ so jus ren zhu the cramp and listen to passing report............but it get so intense that i squat down.............so the staff next to mi ask mi go get a chair to sit down..............

so i get myself a chair...............thn i start to feel vri giddy so i jus bend my body forward lor.................thn when the staff nxt to mi ask if i can hear the report anot....she was shock to see my face turn pale...................so she ask mi to go into pantry to rest.............and ask mi if i wan medicine(but i say i dotn wan).......

when i'm alone in the pantry....i feel so helpless.............the cramp pain jus get more intense.....i get more giddy and i even like like vomiting.............i start tinking if i'm going to died becuz of the cramp..............mi sound so not like a nurse arh.......haha.....but somehow i jus feel lidat..............thn i started to tink tat i still got a lot of things haven do yet......so i did sth.............(now i tink i hav tink too much le)....

thn tis quite good looking guy doctor (housemen) came in to take water....thn he ask mi if i'm ok and say i look ill..................thn i jus told him i'm having some cramp...thn he ask mi if i wan any medication...he can hlp mi prescribe..................haha.............thn i jus tell him he can give mi anything that can relieve my pain (wenya in pain still flirt wif docor......)but in the end i also reject to have any medication becuz i dont noe how to swallow..................

aft in pain for like 2 hrs and feel fainting le.............so i go to my staff to ask medication...............thn i saw four big pills...........2 ponstan and 2 antacid...........i drink abt 3 glasses of water (450 ml) to eat the medicine.....

rest and rest...........thn finally not pain le......so start to work...............copy down all the report frm my frenz thn start to do hourly para...............and it like WOW......i got 8 patient on hourly and 2 patient on 2hrly.......work like a cow until 6pm...thn went for my break..............

aft break most of the hourly para hav complete and off le............so jus slack and tok to my patient until work ends................

so i tink todae i onli work for 3hr plus nia..........haha.............

Watched 'good luck chuck'....................it vri nice.............i mean the story line................pls omit other part of the movie..........even though it did show a lot of position........


but somehow i find the movie vri unrealistic..................becuz a normal guy will be tired to death bah..................

but this not main point.........

the main point is the guy in the movie is a nice guy............but abit sot sot......haha.....

wei le bu shi qu his gal.......he jus ren zhe his urge..................hehe...............

set her free if u luv her...........wow............haha............

but in the end they still tgt lah............
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yes!!!!! 2 more daes and my attachment will be over...............but this show that sch is starting soon................hate sch............haiz....................

todae vri guai............stay at home to pack my hse........T.T................

my mama wake mi up early in the morning to eat breakfast............thn ask mi to pack hse........

thn i reply her that i will pack if u let mi hav my own room........not sure why i say that........but i tink i wan it for a long time le..............she agree...........

so mi vri nu li de zai pack.....and i even force my gor gor to pack wif mi..............haha......so i use the whole dae to pack........i will onli move my bed tml(becuz i pack until night time, and night time cannot shift bed)

the com will be in my room....so.......that mean i can use until vri late everydae......haha......

when we are packing...my gor gor tell my mama tat he will be going out tml.......thn my mama reply,"ok....as long as u don't go out wif frenz that drink..."

thn mi and gor were like....huh??????

thn my gor gor reply it hard to find frenz that dont drink........becuz even our cousin(my mama always tink that she vri guai one) also always go clubbing when she at ah ge(which is mi)'s age lor..........

thn my mama show us that shock look.....becuz she isn't aware of that...............thn she faster defend herself by saying that ur cousin will noe her limit...wont't luan luan lai de......

my gor and mi jus DOTZ.......haha........so we drop that topic aft a long slience......haha.....

thn my mama suddenly say that it so unsafe for gal to go oversea aft watching huang jin lu.....i noe she hinting mi not to go oversea to persue my degree.......so i tell her...ur ah ge not so stupid.....will not get cheated like the gal in the show....and somemore going or not is still unknown yet..........

todae my hse is so happening..........wif all this weird topic............but somehow everyone got the courage to express out their own opinion todae.....hehe....which is a good thing......

i tink i still dont like christmas.........haiz............it so tiring.........hav to do so much thing becuz to make that dae happening...............somemore it not like CNY......at least CNY still got ang bao can take and a lot of goodies can eat..........

Super SIAN lor..........end up i nv get to go out during the eve...........

becuz my mama dont allow mi...haiz...........

she say if i go out arh...she will jus lock the door and dont let mi in...........

haiz...................

so sad that i can't go out wif my sec sch kaki..............

and todae got to work until so late.............thn tml got to stay at home to do my case study(got to hand in on this wed le...haiz......)

the more SIAN thing is tat my gor gor keep using the com..........thn he jus switch off at 12 plus...saying that i can't use..............**** him lah.....haha......but end up i still tou tou yong.....haha....

i was tinking............my gor will surely die outside the world once he graduated...........dont even noe the most simple theory(zuo ren bu yao zuo de tai jue, bu ran yi hou jiu zhi dao hou guo)...........

why wenya's life getting more miserable.........haiz............

super bored mi .......do all this stupid test...haha...... You Are The Sun

You represent the best of life - vitality, success, and and truth. You tend to have a strong, centered, balanced personality. Inspiration and discovery are your fortes. You are very mentally strong. A talented mind, you tend to excel at math, philosophy, and music. Your fortune: As well as you have done in the past, the future is going to be filled with more success. A new creative project is coming your way. Feed it, and it will grow into something huge. Great riches, recognition, prosperity, or happiness is coming your way. And it's possible that a fantastic vacation, or a new baby, is coming sooner than you think.

You Are 78% Feminist

You are certainly a feminist - whether you know it or not. You believe in gender equality, at least most of the time. You also believe there are a few exceptions.

You Follow Your Heart

You're romantic, sentimental, and emotional. You tend to fall in (and out of) love very quickly. Some may call you fickle, but you can't help where your emotions take you. You've definitely broken a few hearts, but you're not a heartbreaker by nature. Your intentions are always good, even if they change with the wind

todae..wake up early in the morning......when to see Dr......hav medication......

when straight to market wif my mama aft see-ing dr.......have my brealfast at home...thn eat my med......

thn start wrapping present....thn end up abit late for miting jm, jing and fang....thn we shop ard sity area to buy present for exchange.......i bought a hair dye...haha......becuz i tink it will be fun if Daniel get it as his present....haha.....and so we ask him to pick my present..and it reali quite funny....haha.......

so we went all the way to bradell de botak jone.......the place look ok nia....haha......actually quite sad to go that place eat...becuz i thot it will be somewhere good....hai wo wear jean(dont like to wear jean...my legs will feel vri hot lor...haha)......

during dinner sit close wif yujing, jiamin and caikwan.......the four of us jus laugh and laugh at wat we say during our whole dinner.................haha.....this my first time eating so slow lor....haha.......reali hav a great tiem wif them......actually luckily cai kwan got go bah......he the one that make the whole dinner so fun............becuz we keep suan-ing him that he is frm zhong guo da lu.........haha.....

aft our dinner over there....we went to mac for our sec part......same the four of us astill stick tgt but this time got Bob and soo boon(join onli in certain time nia)....we tok abt alot of thing.....like Bob's camp ghost story, taiwan drama, malaysia army system and ........................haha.....

thn wnd up we leave at 10 plus....we took train back.......

i tink i quite high todae............high until i forget to eat my evening med...but i eat it when i'm on my way home...........haha...hope that it will still hav it effect..............

so tired and slow todae................not sure why so tired....but i jus feel it.......

luckily tml afternoon...otherwise i will be vri jialat le.................

todae i recieve my first christmas card (frm huilin) and my first christmas present(frm my tuition centre)...haha......it feel great to receive sth ppl prepare who u.....hehe...


went bugis wif my mama todae.....we nv plan of going out one.........but we decided it in the morning when we are buying food in the market............

so we went......then our first destination...OG...we bought 2 top for my daddy there......

thn follow by bugis street..... i tink it not a gd place to go during saturdae and also wif my mama....becuz her say tis place is so hot somemore everything is the same......nth much to see......haiz....so is not a gd idea to walk bugis street wif ur mama....and u will not spent much ...becuz she will say....tis one not vri nice lei....haha....

todae i make a lot of observe that alot of the mother say tis to their daughter........haiz.......haha..

thn our last station seiyu..............we bought my brother a levi jean and top ...hehe...regreted buying thing for him....becuz he dont noe how to appreciate.......haiz........why do i hav tis type of gor gor..........hope that he will get someone in the future that will train him into a gd person......haha....

i'm so tired................both mentally and physically......not sure why...........but yet i'm still here blogging........haiz.....siao le...haha....

todae is dong zhi wor...got to stay at home and tua yuan......

i miss those dae when i hlp my mama making tang yuan....it fun to make the dough into small cute little tang yuan................

everytime aft making...my mama will give us a spoon of sugar(those orange colour one) to eat......haha............it taste nice at that time lah...but now i also forget the taste le..........

but this few yrs....my mama say she vri sian....dont wan to make any more le...........so she always go buy those pre-made one......haiz................

dong zhi kuai le to everyone..................

todae my last dae in obst ward....tat mean nxt week no more baby le................

i love feeding babies......they are so cute.........hehe............

yesterdae dinner was ok lor.......didn't take any photo........

but there sth extra............my da biao jie.......bring a gor gor (nan peng you) along..........tis make my grandma vri happi...............haha............but it vri weird too......becuz none of my the other three cousin or my brother did this b4..............haha.........but can see that the gor gor not bad.........haha.........

thn my er biao jie said to all of us that...nxt yr goal is that all six of us got to bring someone along for the dinner..........haha........(which i tink is not vri possible bah)

so i ask her isit ok if i bring girlfriend???? and mybrother bring a boyfriend???? thn we jus swoop partner.......haha.......i tink it a good idea...haha.......

NOW i onli tinking when my da biao jie going to marry.......becuz if she married thn i will hav baby to play le......haha......i wan babies......i love them.......mi siao le...haha....

so todae shop wif mama............buy a lot of clothes but all hers......

haha.....

i dont like to buy things for myself..........i tink it such a waste (except food....haha...)

so todae i jus walk around see clothes for my mama...........take a lot of clothes for her to try.......thn when into the fitting room wif her to hlp her put on......i tink it fun......hehe....

aft that we when for lunch..........................

thn it my turn for her to pei wo shop......i shop for chritstmas pressy for my jie mei.............i bought everyone the same thing but different colour........hope that they will like it........thn receive daniel sms abt the sundae thing..........so see got wat pressy to buy for it too.....but it like i shop until too tired to see le.........haha........somemore my legs so tired...........

haha...but overall nice dae.....

now going for second part of my dae.....go out to makan..to celebrate my ah ma birthdae....

happi happi....tml dont nid to work....can slack and slack and slack......hehe...
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todae saw a 19 weeks fetus............this fetus hav develop into a full form of human...got fingers....got toes.....even hav his sex organ developed le.............haiz.......but he didn't get to enjoy this world.................his life has been taken away jus so easily by his own mother...............

haiz.......................

i noe tis the best choice, since she is a single mother....19 yrs old nia........and did not married......so she did a termination of pregnacy...........

but why can't she jus give birth to it and let other ppl adopt him..............if i was her.....for the first four month i will live normally...thn hide for last few months b4 delivery....and when baby deliver le.......thn signed the i'm willing to put my child up for adoption..........even though i may not be able to raise up the child on my own....at least he get to see and enjoy the world........... i tink that everyone should have their rights to live......but wat done is done....onli hope that....in future there wont hav so much of this type of cases bah (but reali can ma???)
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todae feel vri weird lor..........when i borad the bus 170.there no seat at all...thn got this india guy stand up and let mi sit.................i was tinking do i look so old, or do i look like i'm pregnant....or isit becuz my wearing nurses uniform.......but i jus heck care and sit..............becuz my legs are reali vri tired.............my poor legs................

HAPPY BIRTHDAE!!!

to Roxanne..................my sweet gal....

to caikwan...................my papa............
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decide not to put any song in my blog............becuz not sure wat song to represent myself now....haha.....maybe sth sad.....but too lazy to find....haha...hope to change my blogskin and song b4 a new yr start......

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so yesterade.....have a good time in nursery.....quite slack also...haha...but i don't like one of the staff.... she so so unfriendly.........watever lah.....haha.......

so yesterdae change diaper, feed and cuddle the babies........

change diaper hav to be reali fast...so babies won't have to cry so long....

feeding more cute lor..they will suck suck until tired....the rest....thn the will breath vri fast....thn they will start their second round of sucking...hehe...but some will suck until fall aslp.....and some will suck suck thn pui out everything(tis show that they don't wan le).......

some babies reali keep on crying one.......but hav already fed thm and change them le...so our last resource.....carries them and sanyang them.....haha.....

as promised.....here are the photo........hehe.......

have been taking bus wif him for the past two dae......tou pai him when he is slping....


everyone is busy checking the babies....while i'm slacking taking photo...


Here are my three favourite babies

she super cute...and she is the onli gal for the whole morning....i tink ahe will be able to get well wif guy when she grows up....


he super cute too....he will keep on shiver his body one....btw he is the single mother child....


he vri guai one....wont cry alot....somemore he is vri special his the onli baby wif his own hat...haha


btw he has a twin brother.......but he look more handsome thn his brother....slping so soundly....


mi slacking again ...taking photo.....haha....

yes!!! todae i will try to take a few photo frm KKH.....

i wan to take pic wif babies.........

to my surprise..........i'm now trying to shoo away sth.........

making myself a difficult person...................

and will anyhow make a big fuss over small things..................

but i'm i reali hoping it to go away??????

but i noe wat i'm doing......................................
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yeah!!!! order a cake from emicake shop for my daddy.......haha.....i tink will hav gd time wif him bah.....haha.....
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i tink 24 of dec i will hav program......becuz some of my secondary sch frenz like wan to go out tgt.......hehe.....but i tink hav to get approver frm my mama first bah..............why mus i be a gal..........if i'm a guy...mama wont hav a curfew for mi le..........sad...........

ok let mi post abt my dae.......

todae went out of my hse at 5.15am...wow!!! early right...........but thn i wait for like 20min for the first bus...........thn i alight at the busstop to change my second bus......mit azri at there too.....haha..........

so tok a lot of crap on the bus journey (as usual).......the funny part is that both of us dont noe where to alight...and there isn't any other nurse on the bus............so aft quite long............i feel vri unsafe.........haha....i tink azri felt that too..so he suggest to go ask the bus uncle......thn the bus uncle tell him that he will called us when we reach there.....

so when we reach there...the bus uncle actually left his driver sits and come to the back to tell us we have reach KKH......super drama right......but the uncle is reali a nice guy lah.....nowadays where got this type of driver le....haha.....

thn we reach the ward....i find the ward setting quite weird......but not sure where make it so weird.......haha.......the staff there still not bad....will give us opportunity to do work.....but tml the staff is not the same wor...hope that they will be nice too.......

the babies there is so small and cute...but i'm not in nursery todae.........i'm being put at the ward side to take care of the mother........

and i came across this lady....she is 20 yr old....came in to give birth....and she still got a 2 yr old plus daughter....and she is a single mother.... and i was like..... wow!!!!!

aft seeing her lidat......actually i dont mind being a single mother.....haha.....isn't cool to have the child all by urself.......but i noe i wont have the courage to reali do it bah....haha....

todae got to see a real placenta too........it look ok to mi......i touch it too...it smooth but not soft.......but i onli scare that the placenta is not clean.......also not sure if the placenta got hep B virus ma.......but i reali touch it....so there nth much i do le...haha....

overall todae is a gd start...is jus tat i'm still vri blur....haha.....tml will be better bah....

yes...tml afternoon shift...dont nid to wake up so early........

early in the morning...............

like wat i say i nv rest well................

and now, i feel super duper extra slpy........

not sure wat will happen ltr on............

hope tat it will be a gd dae bah........

wenya JYJYJY......haha.............

got to go work le.....will update on todae working situation........
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i also xi wang those ppl who going malaysia can enjoy their trip...........hehe..........

so nervous.......................

so scary................

i tink todae will be a sleepless nite for mi....................

haiz..................
y u went 2 slp so early...actually still hope tat u can pei wo
hope that tml i will not be lost......haha....but i tink i will.............

pray hard tat this 8 daes will pass reali fast......

hope that i can get a pass mark for this attachment......

i still feel vri scare...................haiz.....................
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looking forward to alot of dates.......

19/12---my papa bdae.....is roxanne and caikwan bdae too
20/12---shop wif my mom...thn dinner outside to celebrate my granny bdae
22/12---another work dae for mi.....but i tink i wll pon my work bah...got to rest aft a whole week of hard work.....
23/12--i might go shop my own to buy christmas pressy.....
28/12--last dae of my attachment (but it a afternoon shift...sad sia...)
29/12--going to cut my hair......get a new look........
30/12--lakota outing....reali looking forward to it..........but not sure wat program yet...

todae went to my cousin officer graduation dae...............so when to the sufti army camp site(the one that near jurong point)...........

so when there to see parade, much pass, heard them sing song like xiao ren wu de xin sheng...and other language one............thn when down to see my uncle and auntie putting on the don't noe wat thing onto his uniform...........i tink he is quite shuai....haha...but nv get to take ay indiviual photo wif him.......becuz he got a GF le...haha....jus one month nia lei...........see them tgt so sweet.....the gal is also under training to become officer too........i tink they are so match lor..both are so skinny and yet a big eater.....haha...................

aft that suddenly hav goal................but not going to tell ur wat isit...........hehe........

so aft the parade...........we went for the dinner they prepare..............i onli can use 3 words to describe the food...............cannot make it.............haha.............it super not nice.....but wat i enjoy is the time we use to chit chat bah............get alot of update by jus a simple meal.....haha......jus we waited for like 2hrs.........

i also have to thank yujing for playing sms wif mi...otherwise i will be bored to death bah.......haha.........aft everything end..............uncle and auntie send mi and my brother home..........so i reach home 10pm bah......hehe..........

some words make mi feel happi todae..............my cousin new GF say that i look like secondary kids..........haha..............and i'm a cute gal..................wow!!!!! so dong ting u noe.....but not sure if she is saying the truth..........haha.....but watever lah..at least i fel happi when the moment she say.....haha........

todae went to gabby's church..............i tink i enjoy it is jus that i dont like the way how the pastor tok.........it sound so discrimating...............bad guy.............look down on prosituate..........

gabby shared wif mi abt christ............i tink i understand abit....hehe.......but some how i jus can't...........................

but aft toking to her make mi tink abit too..........tinking wat is the reason till now i still can't accept christ's love.........haha...sound so chim (wenya onli like simple thing lei).............so aft processing..................

wenya is an emotionless person, low E.Q., having serious STM, abit chi dun and lastly i too independent (like to tink by myself)le bah.......................that why i can't feel much emotion, like angry, sad, happi and being love......which i tink is vri bei ai bah............i tink is becuz i'm too well protected by my mama and not much exposure.............

so aft i enter poly i hope to feel more...........and the first emotion i learn is to be happi...no matter wat smile, happi and be funny is important......i tink i'm mastering vri well.....haha....thn follow by sad....becuz i discover that once u get happi easily u will get sad easily too.......but due to my STM my sadness wont last more thn an hour....haha.....but still learning in process...

i met someone, a guy.....i like.....thn i start to know wat is happi becuz he happi, wat is angry, wat is jealous and wat is missing someone like...haha.......but somehow i still can't understand wat is love.......i dont noe how to feel it.................i noe i feel when igot...but i dont not how to feel ppls love towards mi....................

and i tink is becuz my home is those traditional chinese house....so vri bao shou.....no kiss, no hug.....and onli polite....haha.......but somehow i noe my mama is gving mi sth.....but i can't feel it......i hope i can learn how to feel it...........................

why am i a such a heck care gal who can't feel other feeling toward mi........sometime ppl jus li yong wo...but i can't sense it...haha......

actually maybe becuz i noe that nowadays ppl dont use real feeling to face others (so xian shi...will onli find u when there nid of u......e.g. will onli find u when they nid hlp frm u...this tye of person super KNS one lor)bah.....that why i also dont wan to feel it......haha..........

actually now the i onli wan to learn how to feel how my mother, father and friends feel bah...........learning in process.....haha...........beside feeling.....sharing is important too.........

i tink that why sometime my post abit emo.......actually when blooging i ma not be emo......i'm trying to learn wat is emo......haha..............

so this person vri weird right.......so big le thn tried to learn how to feel all kinds of emotion....haha........

i tink i will feel myself vri childish when i read it again aft a few yrs bah..........haha.......

i got something vri happi to announce...........i sign bond wif AH todae......hehe.......... so frm todae onward i will be pay to study.............haha..........even though the pay is not alot............haha..........

the contract say no working of part time jobs................but i tink i will not care bah.......i will continue working.......haha...............as i tink jus score gd result for them can le bah ...............hehe.............

now i will look forward to 25th of every month le...........haha.......but pls dont say that i'm rich.............becuz it reali onli a vri small amount.............and i hav save the money up so that if somedae i died b4 i can complete the bond i can return them the money...........

so happi......haha.............

but stupid mi....lost again..............haha.........i took train to queentown.....thn take bus frm wrong side and board wrong bus............so end up going back to red hill...........so i alight and cross the road to go back to queentown stn............thn i take 51...........becuz not sure correct anot so i alight to see the bus directory...........yes it show that i take the correct bus............so i wait for the nxt 51 to come.............haha......lucky i came out of my hse 2 hrs earlier otherwise i will be late le............i reali took 2hrs to reach there.....haha...stupid mi................but the signing of bond is vri fast lor.........it like we take less than 30 min and the signing of bond is done............

reali have thank my three cousin alot................they took their lunch time out for my thing lei.....haiz.didn't expect them to be so "on" one.....but in actual fact they are.....haha...........so to thank them i promise them to treat them a meal aft i got my first pay.............reali looking forward to it..............................

so i will hav to return 2 yrs to the hospital aft i complete my nursing.........................which i tink shld be quite fast...........jus like boys going through NS....................haha...................so currently i will be so called belong to the hospital...........haha............i'm reali high abt it wor...haha..............pls bear wif mi for those who are reading...................

but aft toking abt this happi thing.............something jus chill mi down...which is.......i onli hav 2 daes more to enjoy myself le..........i'm going to start my attachment le...........so scare that i will be late.so i decided that i will be leaving my hse 5am for the coming mondae.........to guage how much time i need to travel there......................haiz......................

todae wednesdae le..............SIAN DIAO.................4 more dae and my hoildae will be over..............HAIZ.........................i have to start my attachment le................

Let mi think wat i did fro my hoildae...........

• working (tis hoildae got earn 200 plus bah)
• done my project
• shopping with my mama
• going to sign my bond

i tink that all le bah................haha

so happi ......e zuo ju 2 wen finally coming out le...............haha....................nxt week will be the first episode bah.....hehe................

jus now read too much blog le...that why so emotion.............but i tink it better not to show anymore......so i delete it...........hehe..............

let mi post some photo bah............on 7/12/07....4A class gathering

Tis my form teacher....Ms teo...currently a student in NTU......


Tis my classmate in sec sch (by right still got more ppl one)



tis mi and janice (wo de lao po......haha...)

after slacking and toking and watever...........we start playing games...........

first game: India poker

PPl who lost hav to eat garlie bread/ pizza soak in green tea OR half cup of Jelly

weilian eating garlie soak wif green tea



mie turn......


flavin wei le pai zao.....he eat 2 times lor...........haha......


Ms teo turn.......................


Ji Xiang put half sup of the jelly into his mouth.................haha............



Dick is the one that everyone wan to sabo one............haha................

Game number 2: Blind mice..............(we onli play one round...becuz not everyone wan to play)


the blinf mice(ji Xiang)...and his assistant({sukwai)

target......


assistant hlping the blind mice to find his way...(but suk wai no sense of direction one lei????)

that how the second game goes.................


formal......................................


informal............we are still playing india poker.........haha.........the bet for this time round is.....the one who lost will be the nxt gathering organiser................ur can try and see who is the suay kia......haha..............

it 2am in the morning............and i'm not slping.........haha.........

have been browsing the SGB photo..............i tink i do love this event even though i still feel that i'm a loner in it..........haha.............some times i find myself hard to get along wif ppl.....may be is becuz of my weird character and mindset bah.....but who cares.........haha....... still loves SGB........frm last yr till tis yr.....haha.....

ok...........now i reali get reply from AH le........have to reali start finding my guarantor............haiz............i tink it willbe tough jobs.....since none of my close relative hav basic pay of 2K and above...got to find other ppl....but will wan to hlp a gal that dotn even noe lei????haha....jia you gal.......

todae.............beign a vri gd gal...i stay at hoem for the whole dae......pei mama go market...thn shop abit at my neighbour......thn bought 2 tops.....haha.....thn have our lunch in maket.....thn when home to prepare ingredient to cook for dinner............we cook curry veggie todae......i luv tis dish a lot....hehe........

thn now doing my project again...............haha.........

nxt week will be my dad bdae le............i tink i will get a card and a bdae cake for him.........tat wat i gave to my mum tis yr.........so mus yi shi tong ren.....hav to give the same thing to him too......

ok............so i bought 3 box of eclairs for my sec sch classmate...........hope that they enjoy it.......

reali have fun at Ms teo hse.........even though onli 10 plus ppl turn up.............but still enjoy..........becuz janice is there...........as like wat i say in vri long ago post...........i like her acompany the most..............i like to lie on her shoulder...........i like to behave like small kid in front of her...haha.....reali hope to see her vri soon...........i tink she also got her own problem bah..........

gal jia you...........maybe by waiting.....u can get wat u reali wan...so bu yao fan le..........jus follow wat ur heart wan u to do can le.......hehe.....
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thank weilian for sending mi home...........i tink he is happi tat he did go for this class gathering.....becuz someone who say tat dont going......went...haha........haha

on the way home remind mi of the secondary sch dae............when most of the time we walk home tgt............but it always like i'm sending him home......becuz his hse nearer to sch.............haha............

he such a sweet guy............actually shld say tat he is gentlemen instead...............so reali hope that one dae he can find his dream gal..........

yesterdae work for the whole dae.................didn't noe that marking paper can be so tired too...haha...

yesterdae quiet weird lah..i went to work wearinf t-shirt and shorts...........thn my boss said tat got parent complain tat my shorts is too short..............so being vri nice person....i went home to chsnge into jeans........haiz.........

but ask ur lah..........is wenya shorts too short??? i dont tink so lei......it londer than alot of ppl le lei.........

but i understand lah.....the students' height is not so tall.....so to them i like i'm exposing a lot of my legs..........
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so todae when back to sch to do project.......haha.....wenya is so hardworking wor......haha...thn 3 plus went home...............and ltr going to my sec sch form teacher hse for class gathering wor..........hehe..............looking forward to the gethering....hehe.......
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now i vri fan not sure when shld be lakota outing...........it so difficult to fidn a dae that everyone can make it........haiz............but i tink i noe which dae it shld be le.............
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lastly wish those who are having CT nxt week gd l uck and jia you for those who are having attachment...................

listen careful to wat bob say.....haha...........

see wat those guys are doing..................

haha....photo is here.......enjoy bah.........hehe....especially those who are super stress for their CT and working ppl.....woo~~~hoo~~~~

jus reach the resturant......................if ur notice all the business ppl sit tgt ...and other course ppl sit tgt................haiz................



some christmas decor.................i tink is reali cute....wif the snowman saying yoyo

Ordering time

Ber and wan yan vri serious wor..........but bob look so blur..........(Bob is 50% off...)



not noe-ing that he is 50% off yet


after noe-ing..............he look so stun that he is being under 50% off Sale......haha........

WAT i'm EAting????

look like Fish & Co hor..........haha.......


tis wat bob and his sis drink.................


tis our desert................but i;m showing this pic is not becuz of the desert.........but becuz kok rui is wif 3 other gal................he so hua xin....you le Jia min haiz take lidat.........haha....



last photo we taken tgt.....................SOB......... T.T............bye bob.............say bye to ur hair....haha....

sad.....not sure why cannto upload photo again.........haiz.........

so todae when to have dinner wif Bob and frenz............at marina square.....the changing appetites...the food ok nia......but i tink bob shld hav fun bah...haha......

i tink is a gd thing that Jm didn't go....becuz daniel went.......can't understand why daniel so jian chi for wat....but watever lah..........i will support watever Jm hav decided....hehe.....

but i notice ppl something..... when daniel is toking abt it.....i think they hate daniel for puting too much focus on Jm bah...........but i tink no point also...becuz we can't change his mindset....

guess wat is the most ot topic we tok abt todae............is how to pretend sick...........and i tink bob will be an expert aft todae..........becuz everyone like share at least one on how to pretend sick........haha..............

i find toking to bob's sis quite comfortable.........she like one of my secondary sch mate..........haha....also so cute......even their way of toking is quite simliar........hope to interact wif her more nxt time...hehe.....

fenella is also the other cute gal...haha.....when we are toking i keep on interrupting her sentense hai ta mei de shuo wan wat she wan.....haha......but wat she trying to tell mi is to join them.....haha....so simple yet i make it so hard for her express herself......haha...

jus read frm weeling blog that amazing food race will be on 21 of Dec............haiz......... canot make it............that dae got attachment............sad.......cannot makan le............why can't it be on a weekend???? haiz...... but nvm bah...........i already xi guan le............most of the hoildae event i wil always cannot make it one.......all becuz of my attachment.......

ok i shall blog until here........i will try to upload the photo.............haiz.............

specially for ting and yu jing:
the daes i'm free.................

17/12(Mon)-------aft 5pm

btw 19 of Dec is cai kwan birthdae

21/12(Mon)-------aft 5pm

22/12(Mon)-------aft 6pm ( i noe tat dae Joc got performence)

25/12(Tues)------christmas wor so i'm free whole dae

26/12(Wed)-------aft 5pm

29/12(Sat)-------- free for the whole dae

30/12(Sun)------- free for whole dae

31/12(Mon)------ will be free if no sch haha..but got sch also pon lah...haha....

1/1(Tues)-------- free for the whole dae

Lakota outing: dinner cum liao tian cum movie....hehe....anything that is R& R bah.....

looking forward to tml.......going out to makan wif bob and ppl (not sure bob invite who).....Last dinner with Bob and he will loss his freedom to government.....haha...........

he going for his NS this thursdae...........hope he can survive bah..........his size make mi tink that he will struggle in it.....but heard that he doing light work in it.......also not vri sure......but jus hope he can tahan for the 2 yrs bah.........

thn also looking for ward for the coming fridae.....my sec sch class gathering...........hehe............i tink all of us will be siao again............hehe.............but also quite tong qing those frm NP one.....becuz they having CT nxt week.....thn still hav to make time go for this......

thn i wan go shop during my week dae......i nid to buy soem christmas pressy........

thn aft this....looking forward to chenpei the amazing food race.............which on the nxt sat.....but still not sure how to register with them............hehe.............

thn aft that will be my attachment le................this time onli hav to work for 8 daes........becuz got 2 public hoildae

thn sch reopen.....work hard for 6 weeks........thn study and exam week...........thn wenya hav to be more serious le........got to study everydae....cannot be like siao cha bo le..........i got to find ppl to study wif mi again.................

thn i will be in yr 3..........i tink it will be MORE SIAN bah............haiz....

tinking abit too far..............shall jus look forward to the nearest thing.....hehe......
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ok now 2.5 project down..........left 3.5....hehe.........

but i dont tink tml i can do much too.............so onli left 4 daes for mi to complete.....

jia you!!!!! wenya......>.<

yes!!!! i finish 1 project yesterdae............left 5 more to go........

my goal.............to complete one project everydae............so tat i can slack for nxt week hoildae..................
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first time working on mondae............wake up at 8am to prepare myself........thn start working at 9am.......so todae my work is to keep on walking around the tuition centre..........becuz i hav to return homework correction back to the students...............i tink it a gd thing....becuz i get to exercise even when i'm working.........haha..............
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todae sth vri stupid happen...............i fell down todae while i'm going home frm work...............and is like one of my leg inside the drain lor...............haiz.............but luckily there nobody ard....hehe........i'm also vri luckily that i didn't get hurt...........becuz todae i wore jean to work instead of shorts................hehe...........

shall continue doing my project le...............jia you wenya................

aft reading my previous post again............i tink i abit too gua zhang le........haha

maybe becuz reali vri sick that why hav those weird feeling.........

i dont like to fall sick..make mi so negative...........Yuckz...................

but i tink i'm getting better le...........becuz frm fever, sore throat, running nose, mouth ulcer and cough...until now onli got running nose and cough nia...........hehe.................

but i tink still nid another 1 more week for my total recovery bah...........becuz the large amount of greenish mucus producton tell mi tat i'm reali vri heaty...............

but aft reading it again............i notice tat i dont hav any typo wor............and the gr also not so much le................does that mean that emo is a gd way for mi to improve my ang mo.......haha......

actually i tink typo is a vri common thing fro mi bah......becuz i actually hav some sort of du shu zhang ai..............i can't write out exactly wat i'm tinking.........i can write word invertedly...........and i also hav difficulty understanding wat ppl say by jus hearing................i nid to see it b4 i can reali understand it..............i noe it....and try to overcome it...but some how it jus stay wif mi.............but i tink it not a vri big problem bah....hehe.....


i shall continue to do my project le.....wenya.....concentrate and jia you!!!!!

suddenly i felt that some kind of sadness is building within mi.............

it growing so fast that, it start swallowing my soul and body.....................

my heart is aching like hell now....................

i tink it the worst feeling i ever felt since i noe how to feel bah................

wat m i tinking???????????

jus becuz of a simple reply cause mi to hav such a big reaction

i hope tat i can be strong...................but can i??????????

i tink i hav become less tough ever since......................

haiz..........................i tink i will be a cheerful, positive and cute gal again aft a long rest...............

i tink it time for mi to rest my body, my heart, my mind, my soul and my everything.....

but can i??????????????????

i tink i hav to bah...............or shld i say it a mus for mi to cool my sadness..............

and bring my happiness back to my side......................

i'm so tired le.............sry for being emo...........but it jus turn out to be lidat......... i noe it sld be happy one ............... i did try to find it................but somehow i'm jus too tired...........tired of being happi in front of of u and everyone............tired of having a busy life................or sld i say tired of............

anyway...........wenya........ jia you.................u will be able to become strong and return back to the bu wenya, the gal who heck everything yet care for everything...............

so happi i can upload pic again...............not sure wat happen to my com.....maybe my gor gor did something tat why i'm able to upload pic again.......hehe.....anyway it a gd news that i can upload pic again..................


this my dinner.............................wow!!!!!! haha.......i nv take wat forbes and fang eat.......

try number 1...................jia min not able to get the angle correct.......

try number 2..................still not vri right...plus behind got ppl................. our smile seem abit weird by then...........actually we take alot more perviously but i jus post 2...............haha.............


change of location.........jia min's photography skill get better aft the previous practise.........haha..........actually this combination is quite weird right.......rarely will u see us clique tgt.........haha.........but at least we all have fun yesterdae..........

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but i discover sth....ruifang's smile is so like a trade mark......she looks exactly the same in the three photo...haha......

taken at the road side.......random-ness by jiamin...haha...

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btw we got nick le........becuz of mi......... ...we are the 3 trees....but for forbes i nv think of any..............haha..............maybe he is a passer by that wan to buy tree.......haha.....

this the nicest christmas' decor i find on the road......haha...............



can someone guess wat logo is tat.......the logo behind the 3 trees....haha......