todae went to gabby's church..............i tink i enjoy it is jus that i dont like the way how the pastor tok.........it sound so discrimating...............bad guy.............look down on prosituate..........

gabby shared wif mi abt christ............i tink i understand abit....hehe.......but some how i jus can't...........................

but aft toking to her make mi tink abit too..........tinking wat is the reason till now i still can't accept christ's love.........haha...sound so chim (wenya onli like simple thing lei).............so aft processing..................

wenya is an emotionless person, low E.Q., having serious STM, abit chi dun and lastly i too independent (like to tink by myself)le bah.......................that why i can't feel much emotion, like angry, sad, happi and being love......which i tink is vri bei ai bah............i tink is becuz i'm too well protected by my mama and not much exposure.............

so aft i enter poly i hope to feel more...........and the first emotion i learn is to be happi...no matter wat smile, happi and be funny is important......i tink i'm mastering vri well.....haha....thn follow by sad....becuz i discover that once u get happi easily u will get sad easily too.......but due to my STM my sadness wont last more thn an hour....haha.....but still learning in process...

i met someone, a guy.....i like.....thn i start to know wat is happi becuz he happi, wat is angry, wat is jealous and wat is missing someone like...haha.......but somehow i still can't understand wat is love.......i dont noe how to feel it.................i noe i feel when igot...but i dont not how to feel ppls love towards mi....................

and i tink is becuz my home is those traditional chinese house....so vri bao shou.....no kiss, no hug.....and onli polite....haha.......but somehow i noe my mama is gving mi sth.....but i can't feel it......i hope i can learn how to feel it...........................

why am i a such a heck care gal who can't feel other feeling toward mi........sometime ppl jus li yong wo...but i can't sense it...haha......

actually maybe becuz i noe that nowadays ppl dont use real feeling to face others (so xian shi...will onli find u when there nid of u......e.g. will onli find u when they nid hlp frm u...this tye of person super KNS one lor)bah.....that why i also dont wan to feel it......haha..........

actually now the i onli wan to learn how to feel how my mother, father and friends feel bah...........learning in process.....haha...........beside feeling.....sharing is important too.........

i tink that why sometime my post abit emo.......actually when blooging i ma not be emo......i'm trying to learn wat is emo......haha..............

so this person vri weird right.......so big le thn tried to learn how to feel all kinds of emotion....haha........

i tink i will feel myself vri childish when i read it again aft a few yrs bah..........haha.......