didn't blog for quite some time le..
actually have alot of things to blog.. but i can't remember le..

anyway.. tml will be april fool....
and i will be working morning tml..
jus hope that i won't be fool by anyone.. hehe..

after work... i will be miting jm, vicki, max and baby to celebrate jm bdae..
and my mama finally agreed to let mi go to clubbing after i beg her for a few days..
woohoo!!!
first time gg clubbing with frenz sia... getting abit excited....
looking forward to tml!!!

jus read finish gabby's blog..
i'm feeling sad after reading her latest post..
even though it a normal process..
but no one will wan their love ones to leave them de..
i can only said jia you to gabby....

miss out a point that the taxi driver point out that day..
he said that both of us have very similar character..
which is so so true... woohoo...

ytd was family day for my hospital
it held in KTPH @ yishun...
i was at an activity booth..
when there isn't anyone at my booth.. we will tok and slack and relax..
woohoo... simply enjoy it wor..

after finishing my volunteering work there..
went home and rest for awhile...
thn started by hlping my mama to dye her hair..
thn went down to my ah ma's hse to hlp my cousin dye hair..
it abit difficult becuz her hair is very very long wor.....
i spend like 45min to jus finish dying the hair...
aft that lfet so tired..
so slack at my ah ma's hse for awhile..
and started chit chating with my gu gu..
tok a lot of thigs that when i was young...
hehe... great memory!!!

got to work tml... jia you!!

back track abit...
there a good news to all KTPH staff.. there is fish & co express in our canteen

ytd was my slping day..
have breakfast with aishah at Mac..
she seem to be little down... glad that she have enough trust in mi to share her problem..
went home to rest..
my intial plan was to stay awake until nite time..
so started onlining and stuff..
but mummy scolded mi saying that if u don't rest now, u can't go out ltr ar...
but i wanna to mit baby mah..so chop chop go to slp lor..

luckily mummy asked to mi to go rest.. becuz i'm reali freaking tired..
went to mit baby... have kcf as our dinner..
went to spec hut to make baby's new specs....
we spent super lots of time choosing the spec design..
but it worth it.. becuz baby reali nida to change his spec le..

we were both very tired after finishing buying the spec..
becuz both of us are not shopper.... lol....

went home via cab becuz it was late le......
the driver is very cute....
not physically, but mentally cute..
he started analysing baby and my DOB our zodiac
he said that baby is veri good at toking.
i will be the one listening to baby more...
but i'm actually smarter thn baby..

actually we tok a lot more.. i felt that wat he said is quite true...
impressed...lol....

will be miting my lakota ltr on..woohoo

have been raining for the past 2 days.
and i love the weather....
rain is sth that can wash away all ur vet and unhappiness..
hehe....

i tink is becuz qing ming coming that y this few days keep raining bah..
i felt quite sad that i can't go shao mu with my mama and relative...
firstly is due the family day my hospital(KTPH) helding, as i'm a helper for that day...
secondly is becuz my mama i'm not suitable to go for this type of event tis year...

back to rain again..
actually i like to walk in the rain..
the feeling is super nice..
but due the fact that i'm a working adult now..
i have the resposbility to keep myself as healthy as possible so i won't overload my other colleague... hehe....

maybe when i'm going back to study i will jio baby along to walk in the rain with mi..
maybe he can hold umbrella.. since he has a weak body as compare to mi.. hehe...
hope that my bond can fast fast finish wor.....

recently have been watching O&G doctor (a korea drama) intro by gabby..
it super nice.. all the doctor is very nice in the drama..
i wonder y the doctor in our local context isn't tat great.. sian..
lol... i tink is becuz it a drama bah......

aiyo.. today i'm working nite.. i have 4 nites this tme round wor..
hope that i can survive.. hehe.. and i will survive de!! hehe..
miss baby wor... everytime when i work nite.. i have no time to contact baby at all.. saded!!
but wat to do. this is my job wat.......hehe..
and i love taking care of all the cute ah ma.. hehe...

18 of march...
work morning shift that day..
after one day of hard work.. still went to a presentation of our hospital doctor..
so in the end onli able to leave hospital at 1600hrs....
my colleague jio mi to go for dinner.. jus nice my mummy nv cook.. so i follow thm to xin wang that near my hospital to have dinner..
guess wat.. i actually wore my nursing uniform and wander around with the 3 of them..
we ate so full that we could't order our mango desert sia..
saded!!! but their spagatti and bake rice reli taste very nice..

out of random-ness....
we had decided that we could go for some k-session..
they all reali sing very well... their voice are so sweet... hehe...
enjoyed listening to them singing.. hehe..
so we left there at around 9 plus going 10pm..
i rch home at abt 11pm...
i will be working morning the following day.. actually i was quite scared that i might be too tired to work...
but it jus opp lor...
i felt very charge the following day..
i guess is becuz i get to relax my self enough..hehe..

19 of march
like wat i mention above..
i work morningg shift..
told mummy that i won't be having dinner at home..
after work.... went to amk to find baby...
have a dinner with him... take a little nap at his hse..
and home sweet home....
i tink i was to tire.... i slp until i don't wan to wake up...
but due the fact that i have to work the following day.. plus my mama will nv approve mi spending my nite outside..
so went home.. happy that i rch home b4 11pm..
i tink mummy is happy that i have the discipline to rch home b4 11pm too..
woohoo... gain some trust point from mummy.....
yea!!!!

20 of march
workng afternoon shift... and baby went into malaysia with his parent again.....
luckily i'm working if not i will cfm miss baby like siao de.. hehe..
happy to work today... even though we have minium staff..
but our team work enable to us to work very efficently...
woohoo!!!!
work is great if u get the right combination staff..

o-well tml i wil be working nite shift..
hope that i will have good 4 nites..

having my day off today..
so so happy.. becuz get to escapse the the busy Monday..
woohoo!!!

on last saturday..
went to do gabby's hse to borrow some clothing from her...
thn travel back to clementi to have my facial done..
recontract my package with them.. as i feel that wenya reali nida that relaxation getawy..
if not my face will rot bah... this package shld be able to last mi for a year.

so happy that i went to do facial.. as an a-te there.. is formally a nurse that working in philippines.. and worked 3 years in singapore....
so while a-te is doing the facial for mi.. i'm able to complain to her all my vex and she is able to understand..woohoo.. happy.....
will go there more often to upload staff so that baby's ears don't have to suffer..


aft that chop chop went home by cab.. and have my dinner..
and off i rush for my manicure and pedicure lesson...
happy.. finish the course le...
even though it basic.. but at least i know how to do le wor...
happy...^o^

Sunday!!
wake up early in the morning,0610hr, to prepare myself..
as baby's cousin cum god-brother, wei hong, is having his solemnisation..
saw a text msg from baby saying that he have reach sg and to wake him up at 0715hr.. if i'm able to wake him up i will be able to get a free car ride from him.
so intially i only wan to call him at 0715hr, jus to make a miss call..
thn i will travel down to his hse myself....
but baby pick up his hp just on the 2nd rings wor..
asked him if i can travel down by myself.. but baby insist that he wan to come and fetch mi.
so baby came all the way down from amk to jurong thn back to amk.. jus to fetch mi... felt touch by his effort......
went to his hse slack for a awhile.. before they started preparing themselves for the event.
we are the earliest to reach the lovely couple new hse..
it simple and nice.. seem to be easy to tidy it...
when the JP arrived.. the ceremony also started..
the words that was said by the JP sound very sweet and touching wor...
all the words will jus make u smile from ur heart...
hehe........
i tink baby agreed with mi too..

after that have our lunch, it a buffet style.. the food taste very nice...
mi and baby jus sit and one side aand get a little nap..
after that we moved into the couples study room and convert it into a majong room, when most of the guest left the newly wed's hse...
so baby, his bro, his cousin with his GF played the majong..
while i let myself hid at one side of the study room to slp...

left their hse to baby's hse at 5 plus....
when we all rch hse.. everyone jus change clothes and slp le.. lol...
mi and baby wake up at 7 plus to go and catch the movie "being human"
it not reali worth the price of the ticket...
but it isn't that bad either... lol......

Allan(baby's bro) is so sweet...
baby call his mama telling that we have finish the movie..
and his brother actually offer to give mi a ride back.. since he is going back to his hall.
but the sweetest thing is that they are oredi half way to his hall and he make a u-turn back to fetch mi home.. despite the fact that he have to rush finish his assignment that nite...

actually i felt being love and taking care by baby's family alot even though i'm only his GF nia....
and i reali appreciate it a lot....
it make mi feel like i'm in the family itself.. hehe...
thank lots for giving mi such belonging feeling..

today i shall jus ventilate out the feeling have latey..
despite of the fact that i'm feeling slpy again after my 3 hour plus of napping

feeling very very tired lately..
the negative feeling jus piled up and i'm so suffocated with all those feeling
having been notice myself getting less focus during work..
unable to response to other ppl's questions
feeling super tired despite of slping very early..

after attending a course recently..
i felt that i'm having a intial stage of burn out thingy..
i tink it all becuz i haven get to have my break (AL) for like coming to 4 months..
Plus the fact that nurses all so not being respect by ppl
back to my AL thingy: my coming AL nida mi to work for like another 1 month plus
hope that i will still be kicking alive by then!!!

it been very long since i have this feeling sia..
does that mean that my passion for my job isn't there anymore
or i'm simply jus tired????
i understadn all the jobs is tough in their own way..
but i personally felt that nursing might be the toughest job excdept for those ppl that trying to open their own business from scrape......
nurses jus have mutliple job roles that will conflict at time when we are working..

some role that i can list down (for those who don't know)

• those ppl that sterotype nursing treat us like maid
• those ppl in anger treat us like someone that can scold freely
• those IMH patient.. kick,scratch, spit, slap and a lot more (use ur creativity) us like we are no human, yet we can't do anything, as we are taught that we have to tolerate all this shit becuz patient is sick annd they don't know or can't control wat they are doing
• we are like dr bao mu(nanny) always have to remind to do this do that, remind them to write this, to off that. it not our job, but our head say until it like our fault that dr forget to do wat they are suppose to do..
• dr treat us like their maid too, keep wanting us to do their changes first, despite the fact that we are very busy
• further more dr will push all responsibility to nurses when some error happens and wash their hands off, and our higher position will jus take it.. as all the reason behind it is that dr nida to study 6 years to work while nurses onli nida to study 3 years (but come to think of it, all human have the equal right in Sg right?? thn y are they still having this old mindset)
• whenever there is sth happen, our feeling won't be those high position ppl concern, what they concern who will take the responsibility of the incident, while they hand their report up saying that so and so are acountable for it and case closed...
• with all the job stress, we still have to work shift work, with tht fact that we are getting such little pay.. and we still have to stay back for all those presentation after my morning shift( for ur infor morning shift is like war) at our own time somemore..
• we have to be the coordinator with all the department tat the pt have. like calling here and there jus to confirm orders.. for example my last nie shift.. i'm simply calling everywhere to confirm how much will e a operation cost for the doctor, as the pt's employer refused to let the patient go for operation unless she knows the price. but can u imagine no one even there to give mi a estimated price and keep pushing mi around to call other department.
• beside all the role.. i haven include the role that nurses nida to do. those basic routine things that we nida to complete..

we are doing so much things, yet due to the sterotyping of ppl.. we are not being look upon as a profession but jus a maid for most ppl.. thinking that it our job that we feed their mother while all the relative jus crowd around chit chating blocking the way, telling mi that i don't know how to feed. furthermore i'm working in a C-class ward.. pls be reminded ur pay very little compare to the whole bill size...

jus hoping that layman can think of us as a profesion can??? we have professional knowledge and skills that even drs can't do.. we are basically a combination of all medical care group for ur information.... we have to be respect as a profession and not jus a sai kang warrior....

to whoever that always thot that we are maid or not respecting us.... u are jus a shallow person, tat nida no respect from others... jus hope that ppl will realise that nurses are the profession that make medical system works and not thinking lowly that we are jobs that clean ppl's backside or clearing urine....

will post about wat i have done on sat..
wake up in the morning to go market with mama..
while waiting for baby to come..becuz he claimed that he will come over to find mi at my hse thn go to JE 197 berth to mit ken and tian....

but in the end baby overslept.. so he said he is cabbing down to JE..
i took train instead of bus. becuz i will be late if i took bus..
i rch station at about 12.30pm.. but the miting time is 1pm..
so i thot of gg to popular first to see if there is any book i'm interested..

but guess who i saw. i saw someone familiar standing there keeping his money..
yes!! baby standing nxt to the escalator with sth in his hand..
for that moment i thot it is flower.. but it not..
it a bunch of chocolate tat make into flower-like...woohoo..
feeling so happy, but so shock yet so shy when baby hand the chocolate flower to mi



after that when to mit ken, tian and willy(ken's frenz, my sec sch senior) to NUS to play tennis
but i don't know how to play..
so i jus stay there and see them play... while i try to learn to hit the ball..
the sun is super duper hot sia.... my poor baby keep sweating and scratching..
haiz......
after their tennis session... went to JE to have dinner with ken and wh..
o-well.. the dinner is great.. hehe..
due to the fact that i have atttend a manicure and pedicure lesson..
so baby and i rush down for my lesson..
the sweetest thing is that baby actually waited for mi until my 3hours finish... and brought mi home... hehe....
that how we spend our 1st anniversary together...

some random update tooo!!!!

this is the bdae present i gave baby..
the food i cooked ..
and the bake rice that baby cooked...

this is the thing i make for baby during valentine's day...
hehe.....

a random pic that took for baby when he was trying out for his CNY clothes...
but we didn't get this clothes... hehe

HAPPY 1ST ANNIVERSARY!!!!
hope that i will have a good day ahead with baby!!
hehe

aiyo our long stay-er, Mdm Lee..
she was discharge yesterday..
for sure we will miss her saying so much of pain pain..
haiz....
she is so unwilling when she is leaving.
but wat to do....

she even ask our MSW..
y can't i stay here since u say the palce i going is same as here...
haiz...

so while i as tryig to find her own clothes.. NRIC..
i discover that our missing comb(belong to the ward de)
she hid it in her cupboard...
beside that she had been storing up all our hospital baju..
cups....and even paper towel...

when she is leaving..
she refused to change her own baju..
and said that she wants to wear hospital clothes..
she even ask us to give her a few set..l thinking that all those she kept in the cupboard belongs to her....

forget to mention that actually this patient have Dementia..
hehe....

gonna miss her lots...

so happy that i'm able to survive ytd...
i took 10 patient.... and do 3 discharge..
so hapy that i can still leave my ward in time.
woohoo!!!!
all thank to my powerful junior.. hehe...

another happy things that i had doen is that i finish reading all my princess diaries..
i finsh around 200 plus pages for the tenth book..
that mean if i wan to read i can reali read de..
hehe.. will try to maintain the habit for reading..

time to do some blogging..
let mi post sth abt the outing i have with jing jing..
she said that becuz jm is doing PM shift that y she can't join us..
we went out on wed aft our morning shift..
it super tiring as both of us did pm shift the day before...

so we mit up at clementi MRT station at 1730hrs.
thn we walked over to k-box..
first time going k-box with onli 2 person nia..
feel abit weird at the starting.
but after warm up-ing for awhile....
plus finish our dinner..
we started to get high by listening to k-pop..

all the korean band is reali super..
their dance is good.. their music is good..
the singers look good too..
wa!! it reali an enjoyment to jus watch their MV..
lol....

so we sang from 6 to 10pm..
but we didn't take any photo..
both of us jus not in the mood to take photo..
we are jus shag and trying to relax ourselves in the small room provided by k-box.
sound abit emo huh???
but ok lar.....

aft that accompanied jing jing to go NTUC..
as her mummy asked her to buy some veggie and minced meat..
so we chop chop choose, pay money and left there..

thn we move on to mos burger....
have some finger food there..
and we witness a couple quarrelling in the SMALL clementi shopping centre(don't know the name)
like i said it a small mall...
but the GF jus keep walking around, taking the escalator u and down..
and the BF jus trying to catch up with her. while trying to explained to her..
in around volume 8 (using the sony ericson phone's volume)
they are treating the place like playground..
jing and i will entertain well by them..

after finish our food.. we went to bus sto to wait for 185..
while waiting.. we saw the couple walk passed us...
the GF finally cool down to listen ti her BF explaination..
like finally after like 45 min...

they both seem like they are quite old wor..
thn y are they still behaving like 2 small kids lidat..
hope that they will cherish each other more after that..

wanted to blog abt my outing with jing jing de..
but too tired to blog le..
will blog aft my morning shift ltr on..

baby jus remind mi to blog the day of the joke..

we are toking over the phone not sure y suddenly tok into this conversation..
baby: baby i forget to msg u a msg
mi: what msg
baby: my mummy did msg mi straight away after they taste the food(this is the food i cook for baby duing his bdae).
mi: isit???
baby: i will msg u the msg when we hung up the phone
mi: (very anxiously) orh..ok..ok bye bye.(in my heart i was thinking to hang up now and he will msg mi thn i will call him back)

vribration from my phone
his mummy msg regarding how she feel toward the food i cook

vribration from my phone again that said
wei... call mi la (from baby)

CALLED

me: *laughing happily*
baby: *laughing too*
baby: ur action very cute sia...y u suddenly said okok bye bye thn hung up...
mi: i thot u ask mi to hang up thn u will msg mi wat
baby: i was laughing aft u hung up becuz i mean when we finish our whole conversation i will msg u..
mi: lol.. becuz i wan to see that msg mah.. hehe...

isit funny?? lol... but we will laughing damn hard when i call back to him again.. hehe

baby came over to fetch mi home after my nite shift..and thn rest at my home for 2 hours b4 he went in malaysia to fetch his parents...

saded that baby is not willing to go my ah yi bai nian tgt with my cousin. he said that is skin condition is very bad, and he don't wan to scare my relative..
he explained to my mother and left....

so the bai nian thing jus go on..
i lost $1.5 for the mj session.. but hear from mummy bro did win back..
hehe....
having a hard time explaining to them y baby nv go.. as they are inform that baby will be going.. haiz... but nvm.. there always a next time de..

btw all my cousin's children is so so cute sia... love playing with them....
hehe....

no sure y.. but they started to have a conversation that we shld all go genting tgt..
they started to discuss is it better to book a coach bus or individually book car and drove up???
the result is that 2 of my cousin will drive with their own family..
while my family, my auntie's family and 1 of my cousin family will book private car to drive us up.. woohoo...
yea!!! looking forward to it....

left my ah yi house at 7pm..went home to change before i head down to baby's hse..
his bro,allan, ssid that we will cut baby's bdae cake..
this the second time cutting baby's bdae cake with him..
first time is his 21st cake.. sec is this...
both feeling is different.. hehe...

after makaning the cake..
the 4 of us(allan and his gf, baby and i) sit down to see baby's childhood photo...
baby jus keep asking mi the same question..
my brother and him who is cuter?? my answer is always the same..
my brother lar.. of cuz.. becuz it the fact mah.. hehe...
baby felt so saded sia....

went home after chilling awhile with his family...
reali love this...

24 of feb
my first day of nite..
at 2rd team.. super busy..
all my IV and left over work from afternon shift..
so jus work and work..
so scared that my DIL, DNR patient will pass away, but she manage to survive..
stay back after work for awhile to do my charging...
ended my first night....
that night is a sinful nite, as we ate KFC for our supper..

25 of feb
there is blood donation drive in my hospital..
realli wan to donate de.. but didn't have time to do it..
end work at 8am.. but the drive start at 9.30am
slp until 2 pm plus.. thn prepared for awhile until 3pm thn went to do some interview thingy.. so miss the drive again..

after completing my interview thingy.
went over to AMK to find baby..slp at his house for 1 hour before going for my nite shift...
that night is very busy again..
busy with all the IV medication..

thank jenny lots. for hlping mi in all my IV..
can u imagine i started to give IV at 4am and i end all at 6am..and screw all the stopper at 6.30am... it an insane thing sia...
but so glad that i survive through..

even though i have to stay back to finish all my report before i can go..
have my breakfast at Mac with jenny and serene before going home..
thank fo waiting....

26 of feb
woohoo 3rd nite..
and wei wei told mi that my DIL, DNR patient isn't doing very great..
i keep telling ah ma mus jia you.....

so i whole night busy
again doing all my IV medication(but fewer compare to previous 2 days)

and also calling doctor for my DIL, DNR patient...
her SPO2 crash... after picking up.. her BP crash...aiyo...
tat ah ma onli manage to survive till the follow day AM shift...
i think is a good option for that ah ma..
since she doesn't have any quality of life le..

27 of feb
my last night.. it like finally..
it so difficult to do 4 nite..
becuz u will be both physically and mentally exhuasted...
i felt so lucky, becuz i don't have any IV medication.. woohoo...
my bed 2 is being admitted by my afternoon staff..
even though the relative abit FON..
but manage to handle them....

my the other auntie started to have bleeding from her operation site..
so called for dr to review, while waiting for her to come..
i reinforced the dressing with pressure bandage..
did a dresing for her after dr review her..
glad that she nv bleed after dresding done or her..

here come my admission..
an auntie that comes in for chest pain...
from her panicky face..
i thot of taking her ECG..luckiy i did take
becuz that auntie is ungoing a heart attack soon..
luckily that the on-call dr did came over to see that patient fast..
normally that Dr always take his own sweet time de..
maybe his sixth sense work well that day...
keep giving auntie a few stat dose
started preparing auntie for transferring..
as normally patient with attack can't stay at general surgery ward de..
bingo... dr did order to transfer patient over to medical high denpendency ward..
woohoo.....
so chop chop we (Dr and mi) send patient over to Med HD...
rarely Dr wil hlp to send de..this show that the HO on-call os reali nice to that patient....
stay at med HD to write report after i handover to them..
luckily that staff is nice.. if not i will not be able to leave aft finishing my report....

everything jus went well....until i pass over..
happy....

ok.. i have a lot to blog.. since i so long nv update le...

23 of feb
it Baby's bdae today.
wake up early in the morning with mummy, so that i can go market with her
thn went home to prepare myself...
left my house at 9.30am to baby's house.
alighted at braddell to collect cake.
thn hopped on to MRT to travel to AMK..
rch popo house around 11am..
waited for baby to finish his gaming while i continue reading my books..

popo so cute.. keep asking baby to stop playing his game..
since that day is baby's bdae, so popo asked baby to buy TOTO for her.
it baby first time buying quick pick.. hehe....
but i think nv win bah.. since there no news from popo.

we went to buy tickets for "valentine's day"
thn have our lunch...follow by 30mins of acarde session..
off we went to watch movie..
there very few ppl in the theater.. i think it becuz it weekday bah..

happy.. after movie session, we went to NTUC to get grocery for that nite..
the 2 of us jus keep walking up and down trying to get all the things we nid..
the dishes that we decidec to cook:
onion egg,
fried mao gua
mushroom sour(those traditional clear soup)
all the above by mi..
bake fried
by baby (have to thank eileen becuz baby said the recipe from her)
we took total of 1hr and 30min to finish cook all 4 course..
which i find that it quite reasonable..
due the fact that it included that time we prepare..
still remember the time i have my home econ lesson in secondary sch..
weilian is always the one cooking, and i'm the one preparing ingredient and washing up... we are the best partner....

the joke of that day is about the soup..
becuz we bought 4 chicken wing from NTUC..
usually my mama will use 2 to cook the soup..
so i follow my mama using 2 despite of the fact that baby telling mi to use 3 from the start..
so when we are tasting the soup.. it taste abit weird.. and baby started asking mi.. y use 3 wings le, the soup still not tian de...
so i replied him i use onli 2 mah.. tell he asked y i nv follow wat he said..
anyway.. in the end i chop chop wash another wings and add it in..
which make that soup tast more normal.. hehe...

anyway.. we didn't manage to finish all the food..
so we keep the rest for baby's parent..
but felt so paiseeh.. becuz all the food i cook turn out to be a little blend.
so it didn't taste very nice.....hehe....

so happy that baby take a day off so that i can accompany him for that day..
even though didn't have the time to cut the cake that i bought for him.
but seem like he is enjoying the cake, but finish most of it cause him to have some dirrhoea the next day.
and i felt quite sry about it....