omg suddenly felt so irriated by my staff..

u are leader but not doing ..

now oredi tell u to jus sent te pic to mi via email..

but now u send mi via phone..

kns...........

if my phone can received and upload to my lappy i won't ask u to send to email..

and now ask mi how.......

of course the answer is the same sent to my email..

but then u didn't even make the effort to read my first sms again..

and asked me for my email again..

irriated..

y all the black black ppl lidat one de. kns

suddenly got the mood to blog again.. actually te previous post is an imcomplete post, but not in the mood to con't it. hehe.. i'm so so wilful.. wahaha..

anyway.. i jus want to update abt my life..
feeling super damn tired from work recently.. not sure isit due to pms..
but canu believe it.. after my morning shift.. i actually got the feeling that i jus finish nite shift..
wah... feeling super damn seh.. so rest at staff room for awhile b4 moving back home..

it always a torture to travel 1hr home via mrt during peak hrs..
not place to sit plus rude passenagers..
don't understand y singgapore ppl mindset is still like uncivillise ppl lidat..
but there nothing i can do nor change..
as that wat the person had choosen.. i shall respect the person wish and let him/her get scolding from the back of other ppl.. lol.. sound so like a devil.. but who cares...

seriously i'm in PMS moode plus craving for food mood.
have been drinking porridge.. and more porridge to come for a few more days..
sian sian sian... actually also got noodle lar... and fish..
but wat i'm craving for is fried food and chicken.. lol.
watever.. i will wait for another 1.5 weeks and i can enjoy those food again.. hehe..

have been having right knee joint pain=sign of getting old??
anyway.. i was tinking isit abt the soft bone for ligament or etc..
scarli is sport injury.. u nv know.. becuz i went jogging so much perviously.
but i'm not that sporty kind of person wor.. haha..
if it realli sport injury.. i will confirm laugh util my head drop.. lol

my workplace is having JCI coming Aug..
and everyone is so anxious, tense up plus plus plus currently..
i think more roadshows, more protocol, more mock audit and more stress coming to us-all the small small worker in my workplace..
sian.. first time going through JCI, abit sian yet abit excited becuz nv do b4..
but i tink very fast it will be over..

looking forward to july... bonus bonus.. and it will cover all the worried from the above..
heard that it half month bonus plus 250SGD plus performance bonus..
woohoo.. happy done by tpm liao, so after tpm is equal to wait for money to come in on july. lol...
i tink everyone is waiting for that bah.. lol...

beside all this my leave is finally coming.. yes!! can go relax relax..
me!! i'm going to somewhere 2 days 1 nite wif my poly jie mei...
and going on cruise for 4 days 3 nites wif my mumy and ah yi's family=rest and relax plus plus...

so looking forward to coming few months.. lots of changes..

i really hope that i will be able to go for advance dip for the coming intake.
i will try my very best when the interview come.
i swear!! will perform my very best. even though i'm always tinking and reacting slightly slower thn others.

i also hoping for promotion.. i reallli nid to up up my salary.
i nid more money for my family.. for my saving and for my future studys..
life has become so so realistic when is come to $$$.. so pls let me be promoted.. hehe..
praying in progress!!!!!

so so many thots in my mind.. all randomly coming out from everywhere..
and it jus a typical pms gal brain.. lol..
everything and anything is connected and will be process at 1 go.. lol.....

ok enough for blogging.. got to do something moorrreeeeeeeeeeeee serious. hehe

last but not least.. i still love my BF-Alvin lots. hehe..

luv the fact that baby came to wait for mi to end work.
through toking to more and more different ppl..
i realise that being together with a partner is not easy and it takes lot of effort to make it happen

like.. u must always make it clear to guys wat u want instead of beating around the bushes
appreciate the effort that he put in..
and etc.

but today baby highlighter to me that i'm not very caring type of Gf..
i don't cook for him..
i don't always buy food for him..
and etc..
which is true.. so i told him.. becuz that me..
but i promise if i will to married u.. i will try to cook for u when i'm avalible.. hehe..

i will support baby for his current career..
it might be tedious.. but that wat baby choose to do..
will try not to stress u so much in the future.. hehe..
but but i still hope that u will go for uni after u have ur career..
luv ya lots.. hope that our love will last..
thank god that it have last tis long. hehe..

ppl that i will always remember:

Mdm Ang-my Pri 1 form teacher: Her favourite line is : i will spat ur buttok if u are naughty..

Mr Paruk-my pri 5 & 6 form teacher: He is the one that discover mt potential in study. He scolded me for not being serious in study and somehow i start to believe that i can be a good grade student too. so my grade from Cs and Ds become As and Bs, only my English is still Cs. But i'm still happy!! becuz i'm someone who always fail English.

Ms Ng-my sec 1 relief English teacher: She is the first teacher that came to tok to me to tell mi that as a gal we shldn't scold vuglar words or point middle finger. From the day she tell mi, i stop scolding and point middle finger.. but i don't mind ppl doing it, but i still insist that i won't do it..

Mr Wong- my sec 2 form teacher: I like that way he discipline us. lol.. we are always all for 1, 1 for all. it let me know how important teamwork is and no matter who is at wrong we have to face it as a team.(which i rarely see this)

Ms Teo(now Mrs Cheng) and Mrs Chong- my Sec 3 and 4 form teacher: they are so friendly and approachable. they are the one that make wenya a more sociable person. From someone that only study to someone who believe that both study and socializing is important.

Gabby -My sec sch mate till my working mate now: know her since sec 1, she is someone that will comment anything abt mi and someone that knows mi very well. we we went to the same sec to poly to hospital. somehow unknowingly she someone that play a very important role in my life.

Daniel Tan -my sec 2 sitting partner: the person i once love, but rejected by him. But i know that he is someone that i can fall back to. he always give mi the feeling that no matter wat happen if he is available he will try to come to mi and support me.

Weilian-my pri sch mate, my sec sch mate: know him since 10years old, he is a very introvent when he is with me. so unknowingly i want to care for him more and protect him. not sure if he can feel it, but i feel that he is a special friend to me..

weiyan-my sec sch mate: know him since 13 years old. always listen to him about wat he wants abt his future since sec 1 abt CDAC lesson. he is caring type of guys that will follow ur blog, facebook and etc. will pop out in ur life randomly. have to thank to his care and concern

Kitty, Hui min and Gabby-my sec sch clique: we always have our mitting every 6 monthly.. lol.. mean we only mit out once in awhile lar. but we nv feel weird when we mit. always so natural.

yu jing-my poly mate: one of my hao jie mei ar.. lol... even though she might reverse herself a little in front of most of ppl inculding mi. But i can feel tat that her character. somehow she is someone that i can whine to, i can cry to her in watever problem i have. she will always protect me too despite my size is bigger thn her. haha..

roxanne, yujing, Xin yi and Jen-my poly clique-make my poly life more interesting. always will study with me when exam is coming, always will plan wat to eat during our break time.. hope that we will go for an oversea trip together soon

jiamin-my course mate and CCA mate: somehow our life shldn't have intersect de, but life is weird, we are friends afterall. lol.. i always find her a good role model that i wan to learn from. her street smart, her confident, her observation skill and many many more. hehe..

Jenny-my collegue in AH: she is 1 batch earlier thn me from NYP. but i find that the way she tok abt working life enlightening me. and we hve to be brave towards our work. we are collegue of the medical team and not their maid.. woohoo!!!!

Goals
Learn Malay
Go for dancing lesson
Learn 1 musical instrument
keep silm
Married with more thn 2 kids
study till the highest qualification
Ensure my account is tidy
Buy I-phone and i-touch

since very long ago..
my wish was not to grow up..
till today i still hoping for it..
but it something that won't come true..

this the 4 months i'm in icu.
i like the workload now..
i like the extra knowledge i'm gaining.
but i don't like how the staff is being treated and the way my colleuge treated one another.

i still remember when i'm still in GW- everyone is good to everyone, no back stab, no so much of 1 gang here 1 gang there..
all diff country ppl work peacefully together with joy and laughter despite the heavy workload..

but now it so so much diff...
i have to been careful with my words when i talk..
i have to be as independant despite knowing very little stuff..
i have no power to voice out to anyone..
and i felt that it a pathetic state..
but wat to do............ i can nv go back to the past..
i have to move forward and face everything and anything positively..
it will be very tiring in long run..
becuz all i wan is to do watever i'm responsible for and be happy.. no fight and etc..
but now!!! for my benefit... i have to start to change myself to adapt into the complicated world..

have to learn to be more confident
have to learn to be more fake
have to learn to be more strong
have to be more knowledgable..
last but not least: have to learn to serve all staffs well

with all this have, i tink i will be surviving very well
but the problem is that will i be happy???

under 3 functional nursing supervisor??
and everyone in the ward scare of them instead of respecting them
without much empowerment
i saw a very dark life for myself in te future!!

hope that i can change the situation.. i pray!!!

after toking abt my work.. here come my relationship

my bro and i starts to tok more..
isit becuz i grow up liao ma??€
lol.. but it a good news...

while my mother and i still the same lor..
haha.. but i have to learn to be more patience with her..
becuz not sure y but she now tends to nag more thn in the past, plus my attention span on her become shorter and shorter as years go by..

Alvin and i:
can i say that we are still the same, but now more of like lao fu lao qi liao le.
becuz we only tok prn and when i wan to have listening ear..
he has been so so so busy with his current work..
while my shift work make the whole situation worse..
becuz we might end up not mitting for 1-2 weeks..
isit normal? i'm not sure..
but i know that we still do love each other, that for sure!!!

i'm currently very active in exercising.
becuz i really hope that i won't continue to put on any more weight..
lol.... jia you!!!
i really wants to learn lotz of stuff.. will list down the things i wanna to learn.

anyway.. no matter wat happen.. life goes on and on..