let tok abt my feeling bah........hehe........ppl who noe mi will feel weird to see this post bah.....haha.....

feeling down...............................
dont reali noe wat i want..........
feel tat i'm nth to anyone.........
tinking too much.......................

with S/S
not slping well...........................
not eaing well............................
tear start rolling down.............
get thirsty easily.......................

all tis show that i got depression........haha....why is it happening on mi lei?????

but i wan to thank to my jiemeiS who give mi a letter and a hug......and also jia min (who tok alot to mi todae)

feel much better.........at least my mind get back to the right track now............haha..............i tink all this is becuz..................the hoildae, my long journey to work, the social network i hav now.....and lastly i tink i haven emtpy my negative feeling for too long.....that why it exploded.....

jiamin safe mi tis time...........taking mi back to track.............make mi tink wat reai happen to mithat make mi feel so depress.......thn aft the tok...i feel so much lighter........i tink i will atill con't to tink.....becuz i nid to tink we i reali wants.......hehe..............

actually at first i jus hope that i can make all my frenz happi...and i will be happi..but actually i wan more than that bah...................i hope that the comment i get is a deeper one...instead of jus a cheerful gal..........i hope that i got frenz tat can sense tat i got problem instead of mi telling them bah....becuz i'm those king will hold those negative thoughts until i cannot tanhan...thn let it exploded out at once..............

this is wat i discovered todae too....after toking to jiamin....i didn't realise that i will keep all those thots.............i always tink that i'm good at selective memory........but i now noe is it not....haha.....

reali hope that my condition will get better tlm....sry to janice, kitty and huimin......i suddenly decided to stay at home instead of goin out wif ur tlm........i tink i nid sometime to recover........sound so serious arh.........haha........of course is serious...........if i nv handle properly it will surely affct mi nxt time wat.......so ti liang wo bah.......

let mi post abt wat i have done on my birthdae............work frm 10am to 6pm...........thn go find Xin and Rox...i was 1hr late...paiseh.......becuz i not able to fold finish all the clothes.........thn we went to cinelesure(not sure now to spell)......thn we buy tickets to watch "no resevation"....thn we go have our dinner........so we watch frm 9.35pm to 11.30pm.......i tink i'm still lucky to board onto the last train to JE station..thn board onto the last bus.......i reach home at arounf 1plus bah.........first time in my life i went home so late becuz of going out wif my frenz......hehe..........

thank all ppl that SMS mi on my birthdae and todae......haha.....

thn todae aft work i go mit jia min to go eat fish and co.........the fish and chip not vri nice...but the seafood platter vri nice...........we order 2 freez..and we manage to drink all.....zhen shi liang ge shui tong......haha............thn we went to sit at the area infront of Plaza Singapura.......... and we start to tok lor.....hehe....it reali a gd tok for mi...becuz i got to find out wat my problem is....haha...

now is present time............i got 3 presents and 3 cards......1 card and 1 present frm lakota....it a dog tag....wif u the words "best nurse" on it...it cute and nice lor.....thn second present frm Xuefeng...she weave my name onto an ice-cream stick ......it nice too...thn my second cards are frm Rox...i called it a luv letter...haha...thn my third present and third card frm jiamin lor........she did a cross stitch pouch and cross stitch card for mi...it super special....and look pretty too.....i will upload the photo of my present once my blog allow mi to upload photo (not sure why cannot upload)......feel quite touch...becuz first year got ppl give mi hand made stuff lor.......it vri nice to receive present being make by them personally......btw i also got a special lazy present frm cai kwan...he say he going to treat mi watch movie...........
let see how bah.............

i tink todae i blog super lots..........maybe too long nv blog le.....so trying to bog everything at once....haha